Haven’t been on here in a long time.
For no particular reason. I have been busy with school. It’s my last year of college and I have finals coming up. My graduation is in a little less than two weeks. I’m not too excited yet. Biochemistry is on my mind. I have to get over this mountain before seeing the finish line.
Bulimia. My drug of choice. It hasn’t gotten much better. I still binge and purge around 2 to 3 times daily.
I’m trying to make a change though. My teeth are decaying significantly. It hurts to eat. I can’t chew on anything hard or cold. I think my teeth gave me an intervention. It’s given me the ‘rock bottom’. I’m not going to be able treat my teeth until I make money, which is after graduate school. I have another 4-6 years to go with the set I have right now so I have to make the most of it. I got mouth wash and toothpaste for enamel today.
I need to move on from this and become normal again. I need to be able to look at God for strength not food. He has shown me so much mercy and grace. I really hope and pray for strength to be able to grow and recover…